the drive home

It was fun while it lasted, lahat kami sobrang nag enjoy and of course all my realtives and cousins were all very accomodating. if only we could just stay there by the beach it'd be wonderful.

As for me and mike the days that followed after the incident was just a blur, we both acted like nunthin' happend. I mean i wish I looked and acted like nothing happened. On our drive home Maggie got shotgun, of course to hog the A/C. we drove back right after lunch. My nanay became fond of my friends, especially mike and insisted that they all come back for another vacation "maswerete and mapapangasawa niyang si mike, napaka maalaga niyan eh." i remembered her saying it. Sigh! i just wish i knew who it is. sana AKO nalang! but oh well.

Everybody was quiet on the first 30 min drive, until Daren said something,

"balik nanaman tayo sa normal noh? ang boring nanaman niyan, pag andun na tayo!"
"well, ano pa bang pwede nating planuhin aside from tambay?" bing chimed in.
"ano pa edi inuman nalang tuwing weeken kila mike, di ba mike?" Erick suggested
"kayo, bahala nalang kayo magplano basta ko kahit ano." then i just saw him looked at me from the rear view mirror. wait... was he really looking? o imagination ko lang yun?
"ay, mike daan tayo dun sa may mga fruit stand ha, bili tayo ng mga pampasalubong." that was maggie.
"ok, kelangan ko din naman bumili ng para sa mommy eh."

and then after that isa isa nang nagsimula pumuwesto para matulog, except me nanaman.. si Daren ayun naghihilik na ulit... haayyy might as well just play with my cellphone. yup! i do have one, hindi ko lang masyado naasikaso during our trip coz i was too excited to even pay attention to it. And then it was just like it read my mind it beep signaling that i have one unread text message. it said:
"Hi trix!kmsta trip nyo? on d way n b kyo? safe trip hme! ingat!mwah!" errol wrote.
I smiled at the idea that someone actually is anxious for me to get back home excep for my mom and dad.

"oh bakit ganyan ngiti mo? hanggang tenga?" asked mike from the mirror. i didnt even realized that he was watching me. WTF!
"kakagulat ka naman! basta secret!"
"si errol noh? naku nambobola lang yan! wag ka magpapaniwala sa mga sinasabi niyan."
"eh basta ako na may problema dun noh!" hmmp! inggit ka lang!" i teased

Since everybody was fast asleep anyway, we just started talking... again. we were talkin' about how the trip went.

"It wasnt so bad yeah?" he asked.
"I know, it turned out pretty good actually, greater that i've expected."
"buti nalang naisip mo tong trip na to. it made me realize lots of stuff, mas lalo ko nakilala bawat isa sa 'tin. mas lalo kong na aapreciate yung value ng isat isa."
"shet ang drama mo mike hindi naman bagay! yech!"

But honestly what he was saying was true, i have learned a lot from my friends and i value them more than anything after this trip, ang drama but it really is true. Even more, i realize that i was falling hard for mike. i saw how he was with everyone. kung paano niya alagaan yung mga girls na kasama sa trip. he he'd helped out with nanay with housework. He's so family oriented, lahat may plano na, lahat naayos niya, lahat may solusyon. not unlike me, lahat magulo... disoriented, no plans at all... siguro the only thing that we have in common is being family oriented. He was the "ONE" for me, ewan ko nga lang kung im the one for him... pero alam ko na naman kasi yung sagot sa tanong ko eh, he has eyes only for Maggie. yun lang yung sad part and he only sees me as his "buddy." how sad can that be?

"oiii! gising na lahat! andito na tyo! yung mga bibili ng mag pasalubong diyan gumsing na!" that was mike's voice from the driver's seat. i didnt even realize that i've dozed off.
"trix, gising na... tulo pa laway mo oh.. hehehe, biro lang." he said in my right ear.
i cracked one eye open for him, then when i saw him staring at him i just whacked him on his shoulder "yabang!" then went down the van and stretched my legs out.

"trix, do you want sit outfron on our way home, hindi kasi ako makatulog sa harap eh, you can have that spot" she said smiling and then winked at me.
"are you sure? sige."
"so anyupdates from mike? i meanyou like him dik ba?"
"ano ka ba? baka may makadinig sa yo." i said lookinfg around if someboday have heard. luckily no one was around.
"eh bakit totoo naman ah, halata naman eh, lalo ka na. the way you look at him eh ewan ko naman dito kay mike manhid naman yata eh."
"hindi lang siguro siya interesado." i said with a hint of bitternes in my voice.
"di bale, trix mag rersearch tayo thru his friends, malay mo di ba?"
"naku yaan mo na mags, baka hindi ko lang magustuhan yung mga malalaman natin. i'll just let it go."
i wanted to cry right there. paano nga kung hindi niya ko gusto? naku para namang dinurog yung puso ko nun. pero ok lang siguro i mean we never know errol might be the one, maybe if i give him a chance, maybe things would work out sa min di ba? whoa! ang layo naman na agad ng iniisip ko. oh well. why not?
"did you get something for tita?" maggs said trying to change the subject.
"hindi ko pa nakikita eh, ikaw may nabili ka na for your mom?"
uhuh!" all done, ayun oh andun pa sila Daren and Mike, abot ka pa sa pagbili."
"sige mags, you go ahead sa van bili lang ako sandali ng pasalubong."
"and trix! dont worry ok lang yan", she said before i disappeared in the crowd where Daren and Mike are.

I got the shotgun on the drive home, grabe sa taraffic nanaman and as usual tulog lahat wel, except for erick who has his compact cd on. and listening to his own tunes.me on the other hand was just too tired to say anything to mike, i was just staring staight ahead. then my cell beeped breaking the silence.

"AYUN!!! yun naman pala ang inaantay kaya hindi makatulog. tsak tsak! he said trying to peak at who the texter was.
"che! hindi kaya, hindi lang ako sanay matulog sa biyahe. chaka hindi ako nag aantay ng text noh." i said defensively.
"sino ba kasi yan patingin naman."
"wala ka na dun!" i said smiling and trying to hide my cellphone from him.
"naku alam ko na yata, si errol yan noh?"
well it was really my brother asking us where we're at but of course to keep the mystery going and was trying to check his reaction on the subject.
"eh ano naman kung si errol?"
"naku loko loko yun eh babaero pa."
"naku mike, that's my problem not yours eh ano naman ba yun sa yo."
"ummm w...wala concern lang ako, siympre kung mag kaka boyfreind ka mas maganda yung hindi ka lolokohin di ba?"
" oh yun naman pala eh wala, so buzz off!"
"ito naman pikon agad. yoko lang na masasaktan ka di ba? you know siympre kaibigan kita, kung may mananakit sa yo , naku mananagot sila sa kin!" he said trying to crack his knuckles and giving me that "macho" look.
"mike, yaan mo na ko and dont worry if anythingh kung masasaktan man ako ikaw una makaklam nun di ba? close na tayo diba? ganyan oh. trying to show him the "close"sign with my right hand.

and yeah did i hear him right? "kaibigan kita?" word, so i guess i got my answer right there huh? does it end there, talaga bang hindi na niya ko magugustuhan?sakit nun ah sapul! pero sige i'll act nothing happend iwas nalang muna siguro for now. i mean that's the best way right?

"Oh bakit nagsimula ka nanamang magsimangot diyan?"
"ah wala lang, nahihilo ko , kakapagod eh. tulog muna ko."
"oh kala ko ba hindi ka sanay matulog sa biyahe."
"well, i'll sit this one out." then i just leaned on the door and closed my eyes. trying to hold back my tears. and for him not see that i was getting teary eyed. i got my answer! i cant believe it.
hanggang dun nalang yun siguro yun? or maybe im just looking too much to it. i dont know, i'll i want is to go home.