sweet memories

those stories as i could recall are one of those moments that are really hard to forget, parang kahapon lang it seems... everytime that i'd go back and think about it, it always would bring back smiles, and yes it is true that sweet memories and even the bad ones basta memories they are really hard to forget... they usually play in your head like a god damn movie.. (ooopppsss sorry!). it just does that to you.. it plays over and over again, like a bad first date that would never end...

so there we were our last weekend of the summer and all of us were just hanging out by the pool of our clubhouse.. siyempre last weekend na namin so nilulubos lang , our summer turned out to be pretty good, except for the fact that mike and I stopped talking to each other, we'd always have those awkward moments, like we'd run into each other and we have no way out but to say "hello", hindi ko din lam kung bakit, he just started acting all wierd about everything, tahimik lagi and sometimes you'll see him staring at me and then when i catch him iiwas naman ng tingin.. di ba parang ungas??? sorry! but it sure does sound stupid di ba?

"trix, problema niyo ni mike? para kayong mga sira tayo tayo nalang hindi pa kayo nagpapansinan."
"lam mo mags, kahit ako nagtataka din diyan ever since nagusap kami sa may tapat ngbahay about errol he just stopped talking altogether." i said trying to glance at him, he was there by the pool playing around with the rest of the crew, they were trying to push each other in the pool.
"uuuyyyy, baka naman dahil dun sa kinuwento mo sakin about dun sa sinabi niya sayo?"
"sshhhh!" i said. "baka may makadinig sa yo."
"oh wellyan mo na trix, weird naman yan eh..."

and the she walked off and shrugged and joined the rest of them, i, on the other hand was just watching them, nakakainis lang kasi gusto ko sumali kaso lang baka ma out of place lang so i retreated and went to the patio to go get food... hmmm.. lunurin ko nalang sarili ko sa food. there i found eric eating munchies as well.

"huy erick, sabay na tayo ha, wala akong kasabay kumain eh."
"sige lang, ayan oh daming pang food" said he pointing on all the food that were all laid on the table. everything looks just good.
"huy trix, problema niyo ni mike? uyyyy kayo ah... LQ kayo noh?"
"tumigil ka nga diyan erick ewan ko ba naman sa ungas na yun kung anong problema niya eh, wala naman akong ginagawa sa kanya tas aartehan niya ko ng ganun. paki sabi mo nga sa kanya ha na kung may problema siya sa kin kausapin niya kaya ako!!!." i screamed at him.
"ummm.. eh kung ikaw nalang kaya magsabi sa kanya?"
"eh paano ko nga sasabihin eh hindi nga ako pinapansin?"
"ayan oh sabahin mo na, kanina pa nakikinig", he whispered.

OMG!!! yes, he is right behind me huh??? stupid! why does he always find a way to startle me and go behind my back anyway???

" o mike pare kain.. o sige iwan ko muna kayo puntahan ko muna sila sa labas." erick said and winked at me.

ok ok ok.. try to stay calm, and so i grabbed a plate and tried to choose what good food there is to eat, earlier i though all the food was good, i actually thought i was famished, but now him being there staring at me I dont feel like eating anymore. But as usual I tried to look that i was busy with choosing what i want to eat and then pretended that nothin that was goin' on, but i swear to god, i think he can hear my heart thumping! as in sobrang kinakabahan ako.

"o mike! kain ka oh, daming food." i said casually.
"sige lang maya maya na."
ok here goes, "mike, may problema ba tayo?" i breathed out. "kasi bigla mo nalang akong iniwasan eh, anong problema?"

ok there! yan ha nasabi ko na, but he did nothing but stare on the mailto:f*@& floor! nakakainis, i wanted to hit him in the head with a hammer para lang magsalita, but i guess he doesnt want to talk. so after being in an awkward in like 2 minutes.. and mind you, it was the longest 2 minutes of my life! i decided to just leave him alone and walk away,

"umm, ok!" i said giving him a sarcastic thumbs up and started walking away... at least i already asked right?

"trix! saglit lang...i's sorry for acting like a jerk, madami lang din kasi akong iniisip this past few days, i know it sound sooo pathetic."
"if you sound pathetic? no, if you were pathetic yes!" i said.
"ummm, you know i've been doing lots of thinking and i mean a lot!. lam mo yun, ang wierd... do you remember that one time that were talking about being-in-love-with-a-person talk? i was talking about you. i have this mixed emotions about you, hindi ako sigurado if i was feeling right... but then when errol started showing that he has interest in you, nagselos ako ng sobra, more than i've expected myself in doing so, hindi ko alam na capable pala ko magselos ng ganun. I was trying to play it cool para hindi mo mahalata, but that night that we had that talk, it was the edge for me, sabi ko "i have to tell her how i feel." and ngayon lang din ako nagkaroon ng lakas ng loob, im sorry... mahal na yata kita."

"yata" ano yun? what in the worl was that? hindi siya sigurado? bakit... all this questions were just hitting me like some meteor shower... hindi ko ma digest yung mga sinasabi niya, ang bilis eh.

"mike, seryoso ka? sigurado ka ba diyan sa mga sinasabi mo? baka naman kaya mo lang nasasabi yan dahil best friend ko si mags.. mike hindi ako si mags ok?"

he just stared at me, baka nga akala niya ako magiging kapalit ni mags.

"seryoso ko? oo!"
"im sorry mike, not like this, you're not even over maggie yet."
"Iam trix! Iam maniwala ka naman."
"I'll believe you when i see it, hindi mo ba alam kung paano ko nasasaktan everytime you look at her? everytime na tatanungin mo ko about her? hindi mo naman alam, kasi ayaw mong malaman, puro ka nalang maggie this and maggie that! im sorry mike, im happy to hear that you finally see me not only as a friend but as someone more than that, kaya lang please understand din na kelangan ko ding makita at malaman na sigurado ka sa gusto mo."

and with that i walked away leaving him dumbfounded...